(Source: aplacethatdoesntknowmyname, via molcano)
I wish I knew what to do right now. Sometimes I wish someone could just tell me that I have to take this path in life and I wish i was stupid enough to believe them. It’d be so much easier and simpler that way. I feel like I’m going through a quarter- life crisis where I feel like I’m always on the outside looking in. I feel like I’m always one step behind trying to catch up with the rest of the world. I’m not content with anything anymore and I’m always searching for more. Something that’s more deep rooted and meaningful and always keeping me on my toes. Before, I thought it was going out, meeting new people, cheap thrills but those elements of my life don’t attract me anymore. I usually find myself rolling my eyes or sighing in exasperation at the thought of going out and doing the same thing again. Literally it is: same shit different day. How are people happy with that? I guess I can answer that myself since I used to be seduced by the false glamour of those things. I want something more. Something where I feel truly worthy and genuinely happy. There are days where I wish I could be mind blowingly numb to how I feel right now and be okay with getting drunk every weekend and doing the same damn thing all the time. Its just so much easier being hidden in the dark.
